Because I am not publishing this on my Twitter or Facebook page; My random 8 email subscribers will be the only ones who read this. That makes me laugh just a little.
When this blog started many many moons ago it was just about random life stuff. It was a public journal of my journey as an employee, a parent, a Christ follower and my family’s journey with a somewhat unique ex-factor. I rambled a WHOOOOOLE BUNCH and sometimes I actually said something intelligent. I had two faithful readers (thanks LW & CB!).
In January 2010, I decided it wasn’t doing what I wanted it when, in reality, I wasn’t doing what *I* wanted. I took the year to focus on my family, the church I was on staff of and school.
Then, in September 2011, my husband died very suddenly and completely unexpectedly. I used the blog to journal my grief in a public manner. It was the best way I knew how to express myself and to, hopefully, help others.
Now, it’s four years later and I am on a new path – a new journey. My son is an adult and has moved out and my life is, well, just different. Add in the amount of social media available and I feel exposed and, at times, highly scrutinized. I no longer know, really, how to use these tools and this blog. So, while I figure that out, I have made all previous post private.
I have temporarily deactivated my Instagram account and am taking steps to close my Twitter account. My Facebook account will remain open but will soon no longer be public.
The fact that I am emotional about closing this blog speaks volumes – perhaps only to me – but it tells me that it’s only temporary. I just have to find a space where I feel safe to be real and raw and until God reveals that – I shall choose to be silent. Going directly to Him for my expression and not to the internet.
For now, farewell.
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